::I think that students are getting more and more violent now. today, i read the news that some kid in NTU stabbed his professor in the back and then comitted suicide by jumping down and slitting his wrists. Maybe one day we are gonna witness a gun massacre. i should probably wear some bullet proof top or smt next time. haha.

anw, i am still awaiting security clearance from DSO before i can start work! and i am begining to think what kind of damn clearance requires like three weeks to complete...haha. hopefully that i can start work next week, im really sick of doing nothing at home all day, with the exception of some housework and teaching my sister some secondary school stuffs. speaking of which, brings back fond memories whereby we did crazy stuffs in school. haha.

found this poem on the net and i think that is beautifully written. just well. wanna share it. you can find the original one here: http://www.best-love-poems.com/poems.php?id=1006740

One sided love - Statexofxclarity

Isn't that what people say?
That one-sided love is the hardest.
Always like a master handling his puppet.
Always like a kid playing with a toy.
Love is said to be the greatest feeling.
Perfect in its own way.
Yet flawlessness doesn't exist.
So there must be an error.
The mistake of a one-sided love.

The way that love is warm, it is the same way cruel.
Though it may be a blessing.
It leaves behind a victim to suffer.

In this case, me.
You have no idea what you left me with.
All the memories you threw away, I chose to gather.
The thoughts of you walking away.
The question of why I wasn't good enough?
Self doubt which refused to fade.
Each and every tear fell for you.
I spent hours in the rain...in the dark.
The only places I could reach for comfort.
The only shadows that taught me to escape...
Just for a little while.
And all the wishes wasted on you.
The whispers I choked out into the night.
The times where I could hardly breathe...J
ust because you were you.
Just because you broke into my heart.
Just because.

I say a one-sided love lacks faith.
That this kind of love can't clash with destiny.
And that love might mean something delicate and pretty...
In the beginning.
However, just like a rose...
Everything beautiful has to wither and die...
In the end.
And this is the conclusion of this one-sided love story.
Heavenly to tragic.

But don't people also say that, to a finish there is another start.
So hope shouldn't fail or diminish.
As these petals of pain disappear.
Love will bloom once again.
This will always and forever be fate.

after being in a relationship for so long (actually not very long also hahaha) i feel that understanding and feeling is super important. how can you like love someone if you dont even understand what he/she desires or wants deep down inside? not even to mention feelings. its well. kind of like x-factor and all. (something which ive been trying to explain to schvelle hahahaha).

but tell me, how many people who really love their partner at first sight actually have them (their partners) reciprocating the same feeling at first sight? hahaha.

love is really blind.::

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::just came home from dinner at dian xiao er. food there wasnt that great, not what ive been expecting after hearing rave reviews about it. that said, the roasted duck was the only item that won me over. hahaha.



i really cant wait to start work. have been stoning at home for the past 2 weeks. people who know me well know that i cannot sit still and do nuts. miss those attachment days. ):::

.:*HaLLoW vAmPiRe* was resurrected on 2/27/2009 10:55:00 PM:.
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